The Reply

De’on Miller
March 4, 2005



The Reply

Am I your hero, then? You ache
for my smile just now. And
thinking back,
you’ve
always been a big hero of mine, same now as then.
Now I live
as yours, and do you know how sweet,
how fine it all is for me? Now that I'm
your hero.
Aahh.
You sense my smile. Zach.
I wouldn’t change a thing.

Man, I just miss you.

We have different missions, but still
love the same. The same as when we
loved with silly string and rocks we painted
then sold for a dollar, or whatever. The same as when we danced, I
with my bandana, rocking
to His name.
The same as when we fished, and finally, each
made our own game. I wouldn’t change a thing.

Man, I just miss you.

If I could, I’d tell you all your heart
aches to know…aahh, I’m not
narcing. I’ve never done that. I know
you still wonder about the mystery
I’ve lived
out. You were always my hero and I’m your
hero now. I wouldn’t change a thing.

It’s been good you hurting—all
this for me. But boy you know something’s
gotta give. God’s gonna bless this storm
you’re in, ‘cause maybe glory just wouldn’t mean
much any other way. Man, I love you, just
how you are. It was always you, to question
and self-examine. Although it wasn’t my bad,
but when it comes to family, I wouldn’t change a thing.

Just miss you, Man.

Now I know cotton trailers, pit
bulls, and angry dads wouldn’t mean
much to some; they meant everything
to me. Aahh, and to have a hero, do
you know what that means?
There’s nothing
like it, Man. And now, you know. And
I wouldn’t change a thing.

Nothing works, Man. Just miss you.

Smoking
and joking, all those family parties. Made fun
of our moms: they couldn’t even talk
enough. I love you all
just how you are, Man.
Every boy needs a hero. You filled that hole
for me. Heroes are untouchable, Man, or else
they wouldn’t be. Suffering’s hard Man. I know
that. And I know
I wouldn’t change a thing.

Man…

I’ve got your back, here in Heaven, same
as you had mine there. Don’t worry ‘bout it, just live it
out, Man. Just live it out. You know
I love you all, everything that’s been. We’ll
always be. One crazy family. You’ve
always been my hero, Zach. And I’m yours
now? Sweet. Can’t touch that. And
you know, I wouldn’t change a thing.

Miss you, Man…